If gods of darkness devour the brilliance of the sun, and secret sadness lingers long into always—
recall the blush-dance of the vast world waking to the healing laughter of birdsong carried on a kiss of blue-sky breath, and watch the flower-fire dazzle red and pink—
a thousand dreams dreamt, a thousand dreams waiting for you.
My poem from the Magnetic Poetry Oracle. She knows that my spirits were lifted by seeing signs of spring this week.
My poem, “The Blizzard of ’96” is in the recently published Blizzard issue of Nightingale and Sparrow. Perfect timing! 😀 My thanks to EIC Juliette Sebock. Here’s a link to my poem, but please do read the rest of the issue, which is available online and in print.
Merril’s Movie/TV Club: It’s still a pandemic, and we still haven’t gone anywhere. Since we can’t go anywhere right now, we had a Valentines/Birthday paint date for my husband’s birthday. I ordered it from the Clay Studio in Philadelphia. The package contained acrylic paints and brushes, clay candy dishes, Mod podge, chocolate from Shane’s Confectionary, and a scented candle. We supplied the adult beverages. He put his birthday crown on for our Friday night virtual Shabbas.
It was snowing and sleeting on his birthday, but we got Indian food over the weekend and watched the Netflix movie, I Care a Lot. The movie stars Rosamund Pike, who is excellent as the cool and totally amoral professional guardian. The other actors are equally excellent. The movie is chilling and somewhat terrifying in that it depicts how easily elderly or incapacitated people can have their lives and assets controlled by unscrupulous people. I wasn’t sure if I would like the movie, but as despicable as Pike’s character is, it’s hard to look away. We also watched a Spanish mystery series on Netflix, The Mess you Leave Behind. It’s a stand-alone series with eight episodes. Raquel takes a teaching post in a small town in Galicia where her husband grew up, and everyone knows everyone, and everyone is called by their first name. She soon begins investigating the circumstances of her predecessor’s death. The series skillfully interweaves the two timelines. We liked the series, even though we laughed at how the teachers in this school only seem to teach one class each.
if after heart-haunted nights, I ask for light, then so do the blue-shadowed trees, their whispers a symphony in my head– spring waking–a rhythmic poem winged in exuberant crow-dance, a promised gift, carried on diamond-sparkled water.
I ask, I listen, I watch, I believe
stars sing, soaring through time, reborn in bird and berry, bloomed in rose.
My poem from the Oracle. She made me work a bit, so I gave her the Redon painting. We’ve had snow, sleet, ice, and rain this week, and today the wind is gusting–but the sun is shining, and each day it rises a bit earlier and sets a bit later.
I’m love, lust, and power, I’m the rose scenting the bower
with perfumed bloom– I’m scattered in rooms, laid on tombs,
in garnet spread, the shade with which we toast the dead the luscious wine, merely one mourning thread,
or sip of seduction. I’m the crimson of celebration— the color of flags and war decorations.
I’m the moon cycle of daughters and wife– I’m the blood of death, the flow of life,
I stream from wounds and birth, and nourish the earth
with youth blown dead, as poppies yield to battlefields
still, bright color pops amid remains, a buzzard-swoop, a rat hip-hop,
with berry-stained fur— all the kings, politicians, and battles were
for what? Scarlet puddles, decayed remains, only ghosts born from these labor pains.
I’m the she-wolf’s cry, and the vampire’s sigh
beyond all understanding– I am the light of the universe expanding.
A late entry for Mish’s dVerse prompt to “slip out of our human bodies and become nothing but a color.” I would normally pick blue, but decided to go with something different. 😀 I’m also linking it to Open Link Night. It’s a live session, but it’s my husband’s birthday, and we’re going to do a birthday project together instead.
Frederick Golden Short, Spring Sunlight, New Forest
Am I really on my way to Paris? My mind drifts and tumbles like the clouds outside the plane’s window. I think back—when I met Paul (as he was called then) that first time in the woods. I hadn’t slept much the night before. I couldn’t stop thinking of the bombs and the flames—London burning; my family gone. I wanted the cool peace of the ancient forest that surrounded our training area. I heard his steps and turned quickly. My instructors would have been proud of my instinctual fighting stance. “I saw you leave,” he said, “I was worried about you.” I said, “Do you know Yeats? ‘I went out to the hazel wood because a fire was in my head.’” He smiled, and as I looked into his grey-blue eyes, I knew I was smitten–and I knew it was dangerous.
Back to my Prosery spies, but no Hopper this time. This is for dVerse, where Kim asks us to use this line from W.B. Yeats’ “Song of Wandering Aengus.” ‘I went out to the hazel wood, Because a fire was in my head’. I love this poem, and it is such a well-known line. I first incorporated it directly into the prose, but it just didn’t seem right. So, I hope this is not cheating, but this seemed much better to me. Also, in my head, I always hear this line sung because I knew Judy Collins’ song version before I knew the poem. Kim shares a Christy Moore’s version.
“I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)”
--Sylvia Plath, Mad Girl’s Love Song
We prepare for winter with blankets, tea, and books, candles to light the nooks of home, as heart, brain given free rein, see in the shadows, ghosts, cold, pain,
the fear of what frozen months bring, the fear of known and unknown things—
we prepare to be together, we prepare to be apart
our hearts sing, sigh say goodbye in forlorn wandering the air waves, weaves strands of grey with light though it also shoots frozen silver darts–
yet, see
there’s magic still simmering, glimmering at the surface where sea serpents shed their scaly skin to dance with water sprites
and eagles soar from bare-branched trees, again into light, over the river, the sky is grey
Bald Eagle
Bald Eagle
Bald Eagle
but the gulls rise, and there are patches of blue– spring is coming
Gulls
Gulls
Gulls
Clouds
despite the mud-stomped snow, the geese know time flows
“we’re coming, we’re coming,” they honk and cry,
Momma Cardinal at our feeder
it’s coming, Spring, the cardinal couples call, and the nuthatches laugh, and the crows gather (not murderous at all) but aware
that love is in the air.
Valentine’s Welsh Cookies
And if I made you up, then a wondrous dream it’s been,
there will be more snow, but in birdwing flight and woodpecker’s drumming
I know spring is coming.
Merril’s Movie Club: So, you know, pandemic. . .we didn’t go anywhere. AND, the GOP senators, except for seven, couldn’t find their spines, or even worse, don’t care to. So. . .I really wanted to see a Merril movie, the kind we would have seen in a Philadelphia theater. I rented one from an NYC arthouse theater instead (filmforum.org). It’s less expensive than going to the movies, but of course, there are more distractions at home, so the experience is not the same. We rented, Preparation to be Together for an Unknown Period of Time, Hungary’s entry for the Academy Awards. It’s a noirish story of a neurosurgeon who after meeting a man at a conference in New Jersey, plans to meet him in a month in the Liberty Bridge at the Pest side in Budapest. He doesn’t show up, and when she tracks him down, he says he doesn’t know her. Thus, begins a story of did she imagine this whole romance? My husband and I both liked the movie a lot—he was still talking about it the next day. It’s not up there with Cold War (sigh), but it’s still a good movie, beautifully filmed. The quote from Sylvia Plath was at the beginning of the movie.