I sometimes write a letter in my head,
“Dear Dad,” I think,
have you heard, did you see, what do you think–
or perhaps a phone call,
like when I called to tell him I was pregnant,
standing in the kitchen of that apartment in Woodbury,
the first floor of a house,
shaded by oak trees,
old enough to have seen
its former glory,
before multiple pairs, young couples
who, like the seasons,
moved in and moved on,
but that day,
door and windows open
was warm with promise,
(or so I remember it),
nature—and I–bursting with life,
he tried to speak,
his voice caught,
words tangled in salty threads of joy.
The baby is grown now,
and so is her sister,
they only got to know him for a short while,
he didn’t own a computer,
died before phones were smart,
but I amuse myself imagining him ranting on social media,
calling out the swamp monsters,
and adding heart emojis to photos of children and pets.
“Dear Dad,” I think
I’d love to talk to you again.
Day 16 of NaPoWriMo. The prompt was to write a letter.