Monday Morning Musings:
“For nature gives to every time and season some beauties of its own; and from morning to night, as from the cradle to the grave, it is but a succession of changes so gentle and easy that we can scarcely mark their progress.”
–Charles Dickens, Nicholas Nickleby
I remember that spring, the winter of despair,
the flow of river into spring again
and again, the earth blooms,
and birds come and go, soaring into clouds
that move across the sky–
the constancy of sun and moon, the ephemerality of life,
insistent green sprigs emerging from driftwood,
bleached and beached.
Each day the same and different,
each sunrise a threshold to the unknown.
In dreams, my mother asks for chocolate–
she says there’s more for them that wants.
This is how it is—
this is who we who are, full of ifs and when
there is both laughter and the aches
of time and memory–
we are here. Now
I watch the bees,
and I remember too late,
to tell them my secrets and wishes–
but perhaps they already know,
telling their own dreams in buzz waltz,
remembering a day of endless sweet nectar,
and brilliant colors that we cannot see,
yet can imagine, reflected
in a sunrise yet to come.
This week has been a strange and strangely beautiful week of clouds, rain, and sunshine. I suppose that’s how August is. We’re supposed to get a return of the high heat and humidity. Yesterday, some family members got together at my sister’s house for the first time since the pandemic. It wasn’t everyone, and even though it was right before my mom’s birthday, it wasn’t really a memorial, though we did have a Sunday brunch fish tray, with fruit, and my Mandelbrot and brownies for dessert. For those who don’t know, we used to have lox and other smoked fish with cream cheese and bagels–plus a whole lot more–fairly often when I was growing up. Every so often, my grandfather, my father’s father, would bring the delicatessen food, which also included herring, rye bread, and coffee cake, to my mom’s (even though my parents were divorced). My mom would supply the juice, coffee, boiled red potatoes, and sometimes I’d bake something. Then, it became a special family brunch occasion because it has become very expensive, plus more difficult to get together. Mindful of the Delta strain–even though we’re all vaccinated–we stayed masked indoors, except for when eating—and we tried to stay far apart then. Fortunately, the weather cleared up enough for us to go outside for dessert. My parents were there in spirit and ash.
When we got home, we took a brief walk, and pulling into the driveway were surprised by this.