Monday Morning Musings:
Ay, thou poor ghost, whiles memory holds a seat
In this distracted globe.”
–William Shakespeare, Hamlet
“but with ribbons
it was spinning Fates conjured,
bewitched by the doll mistress
who knew her dreams.
Whose intention they must spin.”
–Luanne Castle, “For the Doll Mistress”
from Doll God (Aldrich Press, 2015)
The play began,
the first floor of a bed and breakfast,
Gettysburg, Pennsylvania, late November,
every surface is covered with knickknacks,
including American Girl doll Samantha,
and it turns out that Jenny, a guest there,
had a Samantha doll,
who she believed was always angry at her,
maybe is still angry at her,
now that she’s packed away in the basement of Jenny’s parents’ home,
(though Jenny cut out pieces of the cardboard box so the doll could see)
And the innkeeper asks Jenny and her boyfriend,
who are facing problems in their relationship,
she asks them each separately,
if they’ve ever felt that they were watched
as though something watched over them.
(I think of how I don’t like people to watch me
when I sleep. How I’ve been awakened by a gaze.)
The bed and breakfast might be haunted,
(this is Gettysburg, after all)
the Jackson room is sometimes “unreliable,”
(perhaps, so are we all)
Mertis, the innkeeper, mentions
the building was a hospital for Union soldiers,
amputated limbs were tossed out of the windows.
Jenny later meets Genevieve, Mertis’s, blind friend,
Genevieve might be crazy,
she thought she was possessed by the spirit of her ex-husband John,
and John, is also the name of Jenny’s former lover,
(we all know someone named John)
who also has a hold on her,
Genevieve hears rustling sounds that no one else hears—
is it us, the audience?
Mertis admits she’s a bit of a mind reader.
Is she also a witch,
a doll mistress, arranging the scenes for Jenny and Elias?
Mertis winds the clock at the end of each scene,
she closes the curtains at the end of each act, and opens them again.
She lights her “angel chimes,” near the end of the play,
flames cause the angel figures to fly,
there is a final sort of “ah-ha” moment,
did Mertis help bring it about?
Did she know their dreams,
the intentions they must spin?
There is much to ponder in this play,
filled with as many details as the B&B’s room,
It is long, punctuated with silences,
but it does not seem long to me.
We sit, drinking coffee,
and discuss it.
The next day, I look for my daughters’ American Girls dolls,
I see Molly and Felicity high up on a shelf
(one of each daughter’s dolls)
but no Samantha or Josefina,
I wonder if they are in the attic
then I wonder if they are angry.
Should I find them a new home,
foster parents to take them in?
I think of my son-in-law
who was saved by a couple who took him in,
who became his new parents,
moving behind the scenes,
directing them, providing props,
to make certain he was cared for
before he knew his dreams.
Was it fated,
fated he’d meet his love in a play?
We talk about dolls at my younger daughter’s house.
(ghosts and memories)
she didn’t want to send her Molly doll off to be repaired
fearing her doll might be replaced,
so she kept her Molly,
and cared gently for her fractured arm,
holding it on with a rubber band,
My son-in-law enters the room,
makes an innocent remark,
daughter and I burst into laughter,
laughter that bring tears,
sitting across from one another,
we wipe our eyes,
mother and daughter.
My mother tells us,
when she was a little girl,
sick with diphtheria,
(a ghost disease),
she dropped her doll,
“they” took it away,
wouldn’t let her have it in the hospital,
and she cried for her doll,
and she cried for her parents,
who also were not allowed in her sick room,
when she was finally home,
there was another doll for her,
It wasn’t the same doll,
but. . .she shrugs.
Did your mother make clothes for your dolls?
(She sewed beautifully, I tell my daughter.)
Yes, until my brother was born when I was six.
He was a handful.
He baby brother, now gone,
gone before her.
Ghosts and memories.
I have not been good about reviewing the books my friends have written. But with a play in which a doll was a key plot point, and a discussion of dolls, I thought of my doll-loving blogger friend. Poet Luanne Castle’s writes about many different topics on her blog— including family, history, travel, and cats.
Her book of poetry, Doll God is the 2015 winner of the New Mexico-Arizona Book Award. The poems are thoughtful, thought-provoking, lyrical, and sometimes enigmatic. Do check it out!
We saw John by Annie Baker at the Arden Theater in Philadelphia.