Monday Morning Musings:
My mother washes her hands
I flashback to a memory–
my grandfather, her father
rubbing his hands over and over
to dry them
We’d been out walking in the woods–
was this the day we were startled by riders on horseback?
(A magical sight.)
My sister and I were little
my grandfather was wise,
in the way that grandparents are
to young grandchildren
who see beyond the surface
to the hearts beneath
beating with love.
And there’s an understanding
that time exists in the now–
the autumn of one life,
the spring of another
co-existing in this moment
I tell my mother about this memory
and we talk of this and that
I go through her old cards
reading portions to her
as I clean out a drawer
a past, relics, consigned to a trash bag.
Who was this person?
Where was this photo taken?
My mother can’t see and can’t remember—
all the little things that make up a life.
All the little things that make up a city, a world–
the reindeer on a roof display
the stone carvings on a building
the snowflake on a lamppost
the candle burning in a window
We celebrate the first night of Hanukkah,
fry the latkes,
light the candles
I dance to “Ocho Kandelikas.”
My husband and I watch the candles burn.
We talk of this and that–
old memories and to-do lists,
the little things that make up a life,
the everyday ordinary and the magical exceptional.
Every year, Santa comes through town on a fire engine. I have no idea how this started, but his helpers give candy canes to the children (and adults) who come out to see him.
There are a bunch of movies I want to see, but I haven’t had a chance, and I don’t know if I will have any time in the next week. It’s a crazy time of year, isn’t it? I had an anxiety dream the other night, which I haven’t had in a long time. But–we finished watching The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, and we’re on to the finally season of The Expanse. And there are latkes and candles and cuddly cats. . .so life may be stressful, but not awful.
Thank you to all of you who take the time to read my writing. I truly appreciate you. I feel like I’m Mr. Rogers saying “It’s you I like,” but it’s true. Happy Holidays to all of you!
Here’s Pink Martini performing “Ocho Kanelikas.” Feel free to dance along!